sometimes i sit back and wonder "what if"...which is never healthy by the way...*random thought*

back to the basics..disappointment...betrayal...my current moods/feelings/blah...whatever the fuck part of speech them words are...i thought i had past that stage of "searching for your true friends"....then someone laughed in my face and told me that you never quite pass that stage of life...

bullshit.

my dad went to FL, AL, and aint no tellin where else this summer...and i found out about it 2 days ago..no big deal right? i guess....im still tryin to figure out why the shit he does still baffles me and pisses me off...and then he said..."this summer was one of the best summers i have ever had"...yeaaa...the one u dnt spend with your daughter...but ur girlfriend...whome i have only met twice...you would think after about 4 years of disappoint i would be used to that shit...then i was told that the fucked up shit a parent does is somethin you never really get used to...*shrugs*...idk..

moving on...

my mom...

thats i whoooooole new topic all together...

we never could get along.

and the fact that im gay dnt help the situation none.

o well...

her loss

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